happiness....
that's the first word of the new year....
I have to literally choose happiness each day my eyes open, for me it is a challenge....why it is so hard for me to do i will not ever understand....sure I feel that if I do xyz then my life will be better, but then I question myself, will it really? Happiness is a choice, a daily, minute by minute choice....its maddening really....why should I not be happy? God has brought me through some pretty tumultuous valleys....ive been married to my soul mate for 18 years....i have seven, yes seven, beautiful, healthy children....i finally am in my own house....
for me I place my happiness in my husband, if we are good, I am happy....if we are fighting, I am a mess....
happiness, where along the way did I lose it?