This is a new day and definitely a test of willpower for me....facebook consumed me, yet isolated me as well....I would struggle daily with others post and their seemingly sappy wonderful life....even if it was a normal life, for some reason it made me angry and I still don't understand why....maybe because I felt like a fake, a failure of sorts....due to the way I felt versus the way I was looked at and perceived....
Many posts would share how great things were, whether it be with exercising, with their kids, their husbands.....but I struggled with all of it...
I am tired, I am weary, I am tired of being a mom 24/7....I felt like I was punching a time clock, the daily grind....
Being 249 pounds I am sure did not help, having three babies in 3 years time, just a little stressful for this full time momma of 7....
So for now, although my mindset is not there, I know in time it will be....I am praying that God will give me the grace to fall in love with Him again, help me to enjoy my "job" yet once again, and help me shed 100 pounds as quickly as I can.....this being done I fully believe it will bring me back
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