3 things that went well today.....

spending the day with my son

my son being elected as the web master

going to the shop and catching up on tagging and cleaning a bit so the store was not a mess tomorrow

3 things that you could have done better....

I could have just accepted the cash this morning without being snarky

I could have left well enough alone and not text him

I could have not brought up more than once that he was drinking, especially in front of the littles

3 things I am grateful for....

being able to leave today and be kid free most of the day(spending time with Bo)

having a day to clean house and do laundry, sheets and curtains

brunch at the hotel, so gooooood....

write one daily intention, a way you want to show up in the world....

put myself out there, be honest, be real, be raw, because someone needs that

write 5 things you want to create, manifest, experience

I see starting the dinners again, somehow creating the space and time and resources to make that happen and available to 0thers

I want to create my own blog, my own memoir in the next year

I want to begin running again, I want to experience the runners high again, relive that experience.

I want to be a better mother

I want to step back and accept step 1 and move forward rather than backward

ask your soul what you need to know this day.....

I need to know that it is going to be okay.  I need to know what I am supposed to do, honestly, I am deeply terrified.  I need to know that I will believe again.  I need to know that I matter, I am important and I am worth it...

affirm 3 kind things about yourself....

I enjoy helping others

I am a good mother

I am a good friend

affirm 5 thoughts you want to believe....

I am strong

I am able

I will heal

I will believe

I am loved

write how I feel....

I am angry,  I am sad.  I am scared.  I am not sure what to do anymore.  I am not sure what to believe or what direction to take.  

express something you're struggling with and ask for guidance....

I am struggling with my anger.  I am struggling to admit that I am powerless and not in control.  I want to be in control.  I am not.  my thoughts, my feelings, my rage, my life, my husband, my marriage.  I need guidance and I need to adhere to that guidance.